Chapter 20: Two months of Too Much

Today is January 25th. A lot has happened and as expected I am single once again. December was a blur. I got straight A's again (Yipee). I went and saw Jonna in Honeyville. The first day and a half sucked because she was either in appointments or unconscious. I did get to hang out with her family a lot which was cool. I came home and the next day we left for the cruise. This was a trip to remember. We started off by going to see Christin in St. George. It was good to see her and the next day we left bright and early to make it to Sand Diego with plenty of time to get on the ship. Unfortunately when we got to Las Vegas there was a tiny bit of snow on the ground and whenever that happens there, people go into crisis mode and all hell breaks loose. We waited in line to get through a road that had closed due to snow for four hours. Well needless to say we hadn't alloted ourselves an extra 4 hours so we were running very late. The following four hours were the scariest that I can remember. We drove from Las Vegas to San Diego going between 85 to 110 mile per hour the whole way. We were weaving in and out of traffic and praying that we would not be killed in a car accident or pulled over by police. During the drive we were periodically calling the cruiseline to see if they would delay the ship seeing as how even with our insane driving we would not arrive any earier than an hour late. They continued to tell us that they were planning on leaving on time but that we should keep comming in case something happened and they changed their mind. We arrived about an hour late and by some christmas miracle they decided at the last minute to wait and we made it on the ship. The cruise was really fun and I went bungee jumping for the first time ever. I got home and went and saw Jonna again. This time was a little better but still she was very hard to deal with in a lot of ways. I came home, January started and I got really REALLY sick. I started off with a cold, which turned into strep. Along with that I had a gum infection which made my mouth in constant pain and stopped me from eating anything. Along with that I had really bad acid reflux which burned an ulcer into the bottom of my esophugus and I was having esophugal spasms anytime I sat or layed down so I went three straight days with literally minutes of sleep. Along with that I was running a fever of 102. Other than that though I was perfectly healthy. School started and I was over the strep and esophugus problems but my gums and teeth still hurt a lot so I went another couple weeks eating nothing but pudding and soup. I ended up losing about ten pounds along the way. One good thing that came from it is almost every time I eat now, and certainly every time I brush my teeth I am thankful that I can do so without overwhelming pain. It has really humbled me in that regard. Well a bunch of complications came up with Jonna and she basically wasn't going to be able to come down for an unspecified ammount of time and I finally realised that I really didn't like dating her. She was attractive and I think I was more physically attracted to her than anything else. I finally broke it off with her and it was not pretty. She was pretty mad about it and basically never wants to talk to me again. Honestly unless she were to make some huge and I mean HUGE changes, I really don't mind having no contact with her what so ever. I am happy that I got out of that relationship before things got too serious. It did however kind of screw me up socially. Since I ended it I just don't really feel like the same person. I have no desire to be social and am actively avoiding dating. I am just tired of getting burned so the safest thing to do is just take a break for a while. Other than that I am just hating school and struggling to figure out what I am going to do with my life. 2009 here I come